Resolutions...

res⋅o⋅lu⋅tion  


1. a formal expression of opinion or intention made, usually after voting, by a formal organization, a legislature, a club, or other group. Compare concurrent resolution, joint resolution.
2. a resolve or determination: to make a firm resolution to do something.
3. the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc.
4. the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute; firmness of purpose.


We all make them.

We don't always live up to them.

I've been asking myself why this is.

Years and years ago (in 1999) I resolved to quit smoking once and for all.

On January 3rd, 2000 I smoked my last cigarette. I can tell you the time, the location, and the feelings that ran through me as I sat and smoked that cigarette. I can picture it in my mind as though it were yesterday.

I find it odd that I can remember it so fondly. As though it were an old friend.

This year my resolution is just as strong as it was on that day in 1999 when I decided that I would have my last cigarette on that designated day.

This year my resolution is to take care of myself.



For me this is huge.

This is unheard of.

This is something I haven't done in nearly 20 years.

From the moment I realized I was pregnant with my first son in 1990, I ceased to exist. My children came first. In every situation, on every day, my children. Second my husband. Then you add in the house, the bills, the dogs, and whatever else the world happened to throw at me on any given day.

I. did. not. exist.

But I do exist.

Somewhere along the way, the girl who loved fashion and days at the salon and making herself look pretty got buried beneath the needs and wants of everyone else.

The girl who watched her health and laughed and let loose disappeared.

This is the year that THAT girl is uncovered.

2009 was a difficult year. So difficult that I hope to never ever experience anything like it again in my life.

2010 is the year that I change things.

With so many things lost in the past year, I realize that God was trying to show me something very important.

Sometimes we have to clean house.

Start over.

Re-focus.

Put our priorities in order.

God is first. Always. forever.

But, I am important.




My health and well-being are important.

Taking care of ME makes me a better mother.

Taking care of ME makes me a better wife.

LOTS of changes in store in 2010.

I am excited!!