It's no secret that I'm a Christian.
It's also no secret that I have struggled over the past few years to find a church home since moving to our current home.
My husband, who wanted this move, has refused to go to church with me since we moved.
He told me to find a new church and then he'll come.
Frustrating!
I've bopped and shopped and have just felt lost.
So, my dear and wonderful friend from my old town/church invited us to go to church and come to their house and have lunch today. So, we went. But, there was a wee part of the day that I didn't tell hubby about. Lunch was with my girlfriend's home-group.
What you probably don't know is that my husband doesn't like new situations or large groups of people or to be in a setting that makes him feel out of his comfort zone. Knowing this, I opted to not tell him because I knew he would find a reason not to go today.
So, we went.
It was awesome. Wonderful. The blessing I have needed and been in search of.
The trouble is that hubby thinks we should go THERE for church. It's 28 miles away from where we live. I don't feel like we could be a true part of church family that was so far away. Make sense?
My daughter wants to go to a mega church where a lot of her friends go. Me - not so much. I'm a smaller more personal church goer.
My son, insanely shy, also wants a very very small church.
So, I sit here tonight feeling confused as to what I should do.
Should I drive that distance and only do church on Sundays? No midweek. No bible study. Nothing.
I almost feel like I should start my search over again, but honestly? I'm drained.
I'd love to hear about your thoughts.
Finding a church home is a huge deal to me - I'm hoping I'm not the only one.
2 comments:
God so knows your heart and I know He will show you! Go to HIm, leave it there knowing that in His time and His way He will show you just where you are to be.
For years we went to a church but I had several Studies that I went to that were just ladies from other churches that would get together. I loved it as it kept me stretched as I heard others who loved Jesus but had ideas that were different to mine. I helped me get out of the box of alot of my thinking which has been so useful now that we are ministering here in Colorado.
bee blessed
mary
It is SUCH a hard decision, and one we are still struggling with, too. It's hard to join a new church where you know no one, but equally hard to go to a church where you know a lot of people but they are already in little cliques of their own...
Why don't you give the friend's church that your hubby likes a try? Then look for some local Bible studies for midweek stuff...and if your daughter likes the mega church, let her try it out. You don't have to go to the same church forever, and she's getting to the age where she needs to relate to God in her own way, know what I mean?
I haven't helped much, have I? Good luck with your search.
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