You Can't Explain Crazy

Do you ever sit down and try to make sense of things that are senseless?  I have a friend Michele and we have a very similar and unfortunate similarity that we both lost our families in a crazy twist of reality.  To someone outside of the situation it seems almost impossible.  To those directly effected by this turn of events, it truly is several kinds of crazy.  She and I have accepted the cards that we've been dealt.  And we live by the motto, 'that which does not kill you, makes you stronger'.

This has been a hurdle of sorts that my husband cannot seem to embrace.  It's been difficult for me as I cannot get him to understand crazy.  How can you explain what truly is insane?

Today, the conversation between us found it's way to that dreadful topic yet again, and I finally came to the explanation that I felt comfortable with and I am hopeful that he will finally let it "be".   You can't explain crazy.

Once I got past being frustrated at having had to have the same conversation that we've had at least a hundred times in the past 18 months, I felt a strange sense of peace.  Because I finally figured out how to explain that which is unexplainable.  You can't explain crazy.

It doesn't have to make sense, it just is.

Because, really, you can't explain crazy.  Can you?

Monday Musings - Randomness

 1.    I miss Sex and the City - I am ever thankful for the complete series and both movies on DVD

2.    Sometimes I thank God, for unanswered prayers

3.    Only on the days that I could sleep forever, does the alarm clock wake me up

4.    I do not understand why adults allow their children to be rude, disrespectful, and behave like animals.  Sorry, but children need rules, boundaries, manners, and consequences for not obeying.

5.    After seeing that some adults don't feel that they need to follow rules, have manners, or boundaries, makes even more confused.

6.    Someday I really want to visit New York City

7.    I have discovered that in some things I truly lack patience.

8.    I adore coffee

9.    I wish I had a fireplace in this house.

10.  I know exactly where I would put 2 fireplaces in this house

11.  Sometimes I find inspiration in the oddest places

12.  I want life to slow down - just a wee bit, and not every day - but maybe every other day?

13.  Being insecure sucks

14.  I hate Thanksgiving dinner.  Yup, I said it - I do.  Always have.

15.  I love my iPhone, yup, I do

16.  I am going to change my hair color (again)

17.  I'm in need of a new skin care line of products - my old ones just aren't working out for me.  Any GREAT suggestions???  I'm 44 though - so I need help.

18.  Why do pores get so big ???  I despise it!!

19.  I have been complaining all last week about the 70 degree weather here in Chicagoland.  It's November and it's supposed to be cold!!

20.   Big Big Changes are in store for me.  2011 - I'm ready for ya!!

21.   I had lunch with a dear friend and another childhood friend that we haven't seen in, oh, 26 years.  I overcame my complete anxiety and relaxed and guess what!?  It went just fine!!!

22.   I have a LOT of reading to do.  Fingers crossed I don't lose focus.

23.  Sometimes I need to be reminded of things that I forget are blessings

24.  I can't sing.  I wish I could, but oh boy I can not sing!

25.  I am determined to enjoy this holiday season

26.  I'm exhausted, but feel content

27.  Secrets kill.  Just sayin'

28.  Every day is a fresh start.

Forgiveness...

Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could have been any different.

Oprah 2010